ugly beauty

the sun does shine here. at some point i forgot that the west coast is so beautiful. the way the ocean rolls off the end of the earth. the shade of purple the mountains reflect when the sun sets in santa barbara.

i just read a blog about what it takes to “make it” in screen-writing, one writer said it was like winning the lottery. another said it was as competitive as trying to make it in professional sports. i don’t know if i have it inside me, but that’s the beautiful part of this whole thing. pushing yourself to the edge of your limits. how much can you take before you quit?

i want to walk that line. i want to see how far i can go, if i can push myself past my limit and make it…

i’m watching a show on VH1 called “Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew,” that’s the other end of it all. so much ugly mixed with so much beauty all in one place, maybe that’s what makes it exciting. that’s what makes it so nerve shattering.

~ by kevinthomas on January 15, 2008.