the worth of your beauty

who decides beauty
whose job is that
what committee gets to make that vote

i have a definition that runs in my head, that chases me
wherever i go
whose to say it’s wrong?

i have a thought as to what i think is beautiful, as to what i think is good
of value, of worth,
suitable for me and maybe not for you

do we have to agree
shake hands, sign a paper,
pen our names next to the x

or can i have mine
and you have yours
and let me love that smile that you refuse to see

because your beauty scares me
what you want to give me, what you think will work
makes me want to stay in my room, close my doors, and write these words

when i see beauty,
whatever it is to me
the darkness of someone’s soul against the light of your world

i want to look in it’s eyes
see how deep and far back they go
and find a place for me in there, for whatever you think that’s worth

~ by kevinthomas on February 16, 2008.