meaningless place

this..this…th
th th th this is what i feared

ending up somewhere
without the right words to say

i picked up a tennis ball tonight as i walked home from work, bright green in the yellowing street lights, and i bounced it all the way back to where i live. two blocks from where it came. someone must of accidentally hit it over the fences above, just like the countless other lost balls that probably litter the bushes around the beverly hills tennis complex. i bounced it all the way back to where i live. put it on top of a bush in front of the door. someone might see it tomorrow morning and wonder how it got all the way there, on top of that bush, so far from home, with seemingly no meaning attached to it’s place. i bounced the ball all the way back to where i live, and now it’s lost.

i can’t make sense of it anymore
why it happened, why it’s happening

i feel so far from where i want to be
sometimes

all by choice, this is what i feared
attached to a thing that has no place

a person that can’t fit in my life
chose to fly over seas of blue

dance for eyes that are not mine
while i cry and wave at her with her bags

this is what i feared
like a tennis ball on a bush
in a place with no meaning
so far from home
bouncing to rest
lost and confused

~ by kevinthomas on April 8, 2008.